Hi, guys! It's me!

Today, 10 years ago, I created this Newgrounds account! Whoa... ten years ago! The time flies so fast---

Why I create an account?

Some time ago, I've play Geometry Dash and I see the online leves, which allowed the use of custom songs when I previously thought that only the game's default ones could be used. So, I figured out how to do it and came across Newgrounds. And I said, that page seemed familiar to me, I'll tell you more later.

I created an account, and that's it. And I realized something... I can't upload music that I liked or that I want to use for my levels because IT'S NOT MADE BY ME. Which later I was thankful for, but at first, yes, my 15-year-old self thought I could upload the music he wanted... but only original creations were allowed.

So did I create my account for nothing? No, because now I had a purpose for it... TO MAKE MY OWN MUSIC.

Why I create music?

I have always been a big fan of music, I even come from a family with musical experience, and in those times, I studied the art of music during my basic education. But, like all beginners, I had no idea how to bring my ideas to music production. I didn't know how or with what to create a track. At first, I thought you needed a good studio, a good microphone, good instruments, things that were quite complicated and expensive.

Until I came across a tutorial on YouTube using the DAW I am using, FL Studio.

I downloaded the demo version because, wow, the full program was quite expensive for me back then; I was 15 years old. But that didn't stop me; I made my first compositions while learning how to use the program. Little by little, I was learning certain fundamentals and some things about musical theory that I had learned in school. And well, they didn't turn out that bad, but currently those files were lost on the computer that I no longer have in my hands.

But, hey, for being the first compositions, it didn't sound bad... I think...

I admit that I used some samples for the sfx, but the melodies and beats are completly made by me.

I kept making music because it is something I enjoy doing, for fun. I felt very eager to learn and create more music. And the people on Newgrounds liked it a lot. Some tracks were even featured on the main page, and even quite used in Geometry Dash.

My drawings

In case you didn't know, I also like to draw, I have been learning to draw for years and... let's just say this is hardly my thing. But, you know? I met amazing people who were guiding me, or sometimes asking me for advice about drawing. Nowadays, they are already great artists, but I... let's say I got stuck. It's okay, as I said, this is not my thing. I even got a little sad for not progressing much in it, but come on, 10 years of drawing is 10 years of drawing.

About drawing, I was more active on other networks than on Newgrounds, until I started posting my drawings more often here, people liked them more or less. I like designing characters, I have such a long list of original characters that I even want to create an animated series, but I am not ready for that, and maybe I will never do it, it's sad but it's the reality.

But that yes, I like to draw, not as often as before, but... for me it is a kind of escape from reality.

You can see here the evolution of my art style.

If you want a drawing or something to design a cover for yourself, don't hesitate to call me.

Special Track!

I just released a new song for this page and show my evolution as musician.

About my previous retirement

I stepped back a little from music creation and drawing because I wasn't having a good time in my life.

Due to many issues, I had to leave my academic studies and look for a job to support my siblings, my grandmother, and myself. It was a difficult situation; because of this, I lost many opportunities, many friendships, a lot of time.

And even so, I managed to get by as best as I could... My siblings managed to become independent, but I stayed taking care of my grandmother, who is sick and blind. I dedicated a lot of time to her, which has prevented me from continuing creating content for the moment.

Currently, I still have a job that requires a lot of my time and effort, but little by little I am regaining the motivation to move forward. I want to study again, I want to dedicate myself again to what once made me happy...

Depressive attack

I recently had an episode of depression and anxiety due to the high work stress and how fast time is flying.

So much so that I didn't realize that the small accounts I used to follow are now big content creators.

I, therefore, was having a very hard time, because I also wanted to grow, but the situations didn't allow me to.

But someone told me not to do it for the numbers, not to do it for the trends, I still have time to grow, it's not the end yet... You have no idea how much I needed those words...

And yes, it hurts... but there is no better solution than to keep moving forward, not to look back. Leave the past behind, because the past is past. And also not to think too much about the future.

For now, I enjoy the few things I have in the present. Maybe I can't recover the old friendships I have had and valued, but while I am fine, everything will be fine...

And now what?

I plan to change my content a bit, I won't give up music or art, but I want to try something different.

When I can get back on my feet, I will probably become a mediocre attempt at a YouTuber or Streamer.

I don't know what I really want to do with my life, and that's okay, right? I want to try everything... That's the bad part, that I want to do everything and I don't have time to do it.

Thanks!

Thanks for reading this... Seriously. After all, you are a huge community, you are a great inspiration to me. I am very grateful that you have me here and I always feel welcome.

And I want to give some Special Thanks!

@RobTop for creating Geometry Dash and be the main motivation for which I decided to join Newgrounds.

@ninjamuffin99 for use one of my music in one of your first games, and also create Friday Night Funkin'

@Preds for being one of my first fans and for delighting me with your amazing music. You are incredible, my friend.

@TomFulp for creating Newgrounds.com and make me feel welcome always.

@TodukenMusic for the past collab and for moving forward.

@ExorYer for being a good friend from 2018 to 2025. I love you

And yes... That's all...

Sorry for many things, but also many thanks for having me here.

I promise that this time I will come back, to be better, to create more.

As the flagship motto of Newgrounds says: "Everything, by everyone"

Now, for more years together!